are you kidding??? / Connie ((aunt)) I was told today that I am holding on to you too much and that your mom and I should just let you go. Are you kidding??? How the heck do you let go???? Its like you never existed. Do they think I'm insane or something because I don't want to let go of your memory. Yes life goes on and it has because it just has too, but that doesn't mean I have to act like you were never here. You bring a smile to my face everytime I think about the pranks you used to pull or the hard time you gave your mother. You were never at one place for very long. Remember the time I came over and then I walked home. You actually went looking for me on St. Clair - you weren't even 3 years old yet. Or the time you dove off the diving board and pretended to drown - your mom and I lost 10 pounds on the spot from fear. No way I won't let that go. You existed, you still exist and thats that!!!
hey sammy / Stefanie Vala (cousin) well today is july 3 i was at the pool today me samantha and her friend jessica were there and this guy sammy hes are cousin too 3rd cousin though he opend samnthas phone and a picture of u was there and he said who is this? i said its my cousn sammy he said very sad paul pepes brother i said yea he said oh hes my cousin too i said yea then hes like he dided right i said yea he said oh i wish i could of met him i said ohh and then he got up and left. Then i was thinking wow everybody knows sammy and paul so sammy you were loved very much even people that didnt know u my friends are 3rd cousins he has 6 brothers and 1 sisters his brothers names are mario cladio masqalle santino fabisio and his sisters name is guliana we all miss you everyday we think about you the other day we were at zi italys the day that portugal won we were talking about you and how much we missed you and your mom said why do we always talk about him at partys and i said because he wants to be part of it well i have to go luv u 4 ever your littlest cousin stefanie italy is going to win the cup u know why because u just for u there going to win im telling you
Sammy i Just edit this I told you italy ended up win just for you love yaa rest in PEACE!!! byee love you miss you
Missing you / Connie (aunt) Hey sammy: I'm just sitting here thinking about you. Wondering what you'd be doing today. Its the long weekend so I can imagine that you'd probobly be out there partying or probobly going to Wasaga for the weekend. When you passed away you were 19 - this year you became 22 years old. I wonder at 22 what you'd be doing. For sure you would have graduated from college and probobly working fulltime. Now we'll never know.
I know your always around because I feel you and I have visions of you. Everynight i go to bed reliving June 21, 2003. Its a permanent pain in my heart that doesn't go away. So much has changed since you left. Both my Sam and Paul are now driving. They have their G licences. Your brother Gino met a really nice girl named Daniella. You would have liked her. I think they are getting married next year. Thats going to be a tough one. Not seeing you there physically, although I know you will be their spiritually. Its going to be very bittersweet. Shannon met a nice guy named Jason. You would have approved of him. He's very sweet and they are really cute together. Trish was let go from her job last week but I know she'll be okay. She has both you and Uncle Domenic looking out for her.
I haven't dreamt about you in awhile. Come to my dreams tonight. I want to see you and Domenic again. I miss you both.
AS I WAS WALKING BY.... / Italia Furtado (Aunt)
Sam,
We were on St. Clair yesterday, alot of partying going on and I blocked out your face because it was too hard to think of you and not be reminded of how you were always front and centre whenever Italy won a soccer match. But as I walked by the cemetery I saw you clear as day with the biggest flag of all and you were in the middle of the road waving it. You were at peace and you were happy. I did not feel sad and I did not feel betrayed by the loss, I felt your peace and my heart heard your laughter. It was that moment with you, feeling you so close to me that I thankful to God for. You are alive and well and your spirit is doing great things, you are touching our lives still and I am thankful every day for that priviledge. Peace and love Sammy....Viva Italia!!!!
hey/ Connie (aunt - godmother ) Hey Samoocho: I'm sitting here looking at your website and the tributes your aunts and cousins have done for you. It saddens me to think that we had to have this memorial website for you, you shoud have been here. I wonder sometimes why the heck you didn't give any of us a chance. This week I am in angry mode with you but I don't want to be. It was 3 years last week and for the first time I went to the cemetary and I was very angry with you. Then there are days like today when I think I need to start letting go but then I get scared because I think if I let go I will forget you.
I don't know what to do anymore.
Sammy this is for u / Samantha Vala (cousin) sammy i am writing this to u today b cuz i know i havent been putting to much in this site b cuz i makes em think of u but even if i dont come on this site i think about u everyday about if u were here if everything will be different and it probably will b cuz u would be ahere and not gone sammy the whole family misses u and awe really want u back u left to to to soon 19 wow thats to early we need u back and i always wondered if there was a way to get u back but i know now that theres not and that yes u will be gone forever and i know im suppose to accept the fact but i cant and i probably never will b cuz i am still gonn wish and wish that u were here. This year u prpbably know that its the Fifa World Cup and u will be proud about how Italy is playing and if u were i know that u would be on St. Clair all the time Forza Italia lol well im gonna go luv u always and miss u alot (L)(K) xoxoxoxoxox : Birdd
I miss you!! / Christopher Furtado (cousin) sammy i wish i could hav said goodbye becauze i always luved having u as a cousin and i wish u had never done this because you left a great family i know u were depressed but all u had to do was talk about it you never had do what u did we are all sad and wish u didn't because i miss u .
Sammy im sorry / Samantha Vala (cousin)
Sammy I know today is your 3 year anniverssary and I didn't go to see you i am so sorry sammy and i I hope your not mad I love you so much and Sammy I hope u will forgive me. I love you so much I think about you everyday and I wish you were here Sammy it feels so different without you here no one will ever have the same smile on their face like we all did when you were here and Sammy we all want you here again just to see you for a day, a minute, or even an hour I would give up my everything just to see you and see how we all grew up and help is with any problems. If you were sad, happy or mad you would always make us smile Sammy we need you back and we love you so much you were the best and I LOVE YOU. R.I.P SAM (L)(K).
you already know everything i need to say stay with me sam!
ON THE THIRD YEAR.... / Italia Furtado (Aunt)
So today is 3 years.I’m not going to call it an anniversary because anniversaries to me are associated with laughter and parties.No this isn’t an anniversary, this is a reminder.Today is the 3 year reminder of the day you left us.Sammy although you’re gone, you are still so much alive in our lives.Your spirit and wisdom still live in each and every one of us who love you and cherish your memory.There isn’t a day that goes by that we’re not reminded of you.How can we not be?You were every where, you were a part of everything.Sammy the little boy we watched grow into a beautiful stunning young man may have been taken from us sadly too soon, but no one can take away our memories and our love for you and with every beat of my heart I know your spirit is alive and living in my heart.I’ll watch for the rainbow and I’ll collect the pennies when I find them and I’ll add them to my collection of hopeful reminders that one day I’ll meet up with you again.And when that day comes and God decides to take me home, I’ll know that you’ll be there at the door.I love you tons Sammy, peace and love.Zia Italy.
today is the day you left / Stefanie (cousin) sammy today id the day you left us all today is the day that we were all at your house at 7:45 in the morning pray for u to stay alive watching everybody cry scream shake watching the maremdics take you away seeing all the people who came to see you because they cared but you just didnt make it so now 3 years later we all visiting you at the cematary to see you once more i still remember it like it was yesturday my mom screaming and crying wakeing up to a load scream finding out that my cousin just dided watching your aunt cry and cry and cry and never stop because her butiful son is gone we all pray that you will come back one day i hope that one day is soon it seems all like a dream and i wish it was i love you and rest in peace. stefanie
June 21st - First day of Summer / Connie (Aunt) Flashback to June 21, 2003 - 7:45 a.m. - I received a call from your mother that you harmed yourself. I drove to your house not wanting to believe that this was true. I finally got to see you lying on the dining room floor while the paramedics tried to revive you. We all started praying for you to come back and that we loved you. You didn't come back. Memories started flooding in my head while you laid there. The first time I saw you on March 30, 1984. I fell in love instantly. I wanted you to come home with me but your mother my sister said no. Huh Huh! So I walked over to your house at least 3 times a week so that I could spend time with you and as soon as you were able to start talking and walking you starting running into my arms and called me Cayee. You couldn't yet say Connie. You grew up to be a wonderful fun loving young man. You had a wonderful sense of humor and spunk. Never a dull moment. You still do. Things have happened to all of us during the past 3 years that only you would have been able to do. Now I visit you in the cemetary. To me thats my sanctuary. I get to sit and talk to you and I know you are there with me. We miss you Sammy, my samoocho. We wish you were back here with us in the physical sense. I know you are at peace now and with my zio Mimmo. I had a vision driving home yesterday of the both of you walking through a park hand in hand. Zio mimmo was leading the way.
Rest in peace my beautiful nephew. Your memories will live on forever.
Love Zie Connie
i miss you lots / Stefanie Vala (cousin) sаммy love you so much i wish you weren`t gone i miss you. I wish i could see you just i moe time if icould spend that day and party and never stop so that day will go on and on and on i wish we had more memorys i wish we could of made new ones and i wish you could see us all grow and grow each day my mom your aunt fortch is turning 40 on the 22 the day after you left us she said" it will never be the same without sammy because he always put a smile on everybody`s face wether they were happy ,sad or mad or wether he was sad happy or mad and my birthdays will never be the same without him there". we might of had laghs we you were gone but not as much and not the same ones. Almost everyday i see your mom and zi connie and zi italy you dad the most they all have a sad face we cant party as much as when you were because you started the party you and nicole and i don`t think you mom or dad or any of us will have the same smile on our face from when you were here.Your brothers miss you too alot well i think ive said anuf for one day i love and see you tommorow 3 year wow its been a long time but yet it seems like yesturday love you for ever :stefanie angel
memories of you / Fortch Vala (aunt) 3 years have gone by so fast and who would have thought that we would never see your smile again and that laughter that made a room fill up whenever you were there. You were such a joker and your mom only laughed when you were in the room with her. You always hung around her and always teased her because you knew that she would melt in your hands. Your parents miss you so much and your moms eyes always tell me the pain that she is going thru everyday that she wakes up. Sammy you were her life you were the reason why she loved going on each day because there was never a dull moment with you and she loved to see you and how good you were with everyone. you were the glue that kept all your friends together and now there is no more hanging out at RW for what you arent there anymore to plan the days events. Summer starts tomorrow but for us its another summer without you. St Clair died the day they took you out of your house. My kids will never know the fun and laughter they would have had with you if you were still here. We had my 40th bday party on Sat and all the cousins were there but there was still one piece of the puzzle missing and we are trying to put that piece together but its so hard to do that. We know that life has to go on but its hard to go on when there will always be one chair missing at each family gathering and one face so beautiful that we will never see. Your cousins miss you so much all of them and I know that it will be a hard day to face tomorrow but we will do it again for another year and try to smile like we always do. I love you sweet angel and please never forget to visit us in our dreams so we can keep you alive. I know that I have two angels always watching down on us you and Zi Mimmo. Keep smiling down on us and give a big hug and kiss to your Uncle for me and tell him how much we love and miss him too. Sammy RIP and every now and then show us the rainbows.
I LOVE YOU ALWAYS Zi FORTCH
me again / Connie hey samooch: we celebrated zie fortchie's 40th birthday party today. We were talking about you and the things you used to do at parties and with your brothers and cousins. Your mom was alittle emotional and so were all of us. Its not the same without you there. We know a part of the family is gone but we tried to make the best of the situation.
Missing you
love zia
Missin you / LD i dont know how to make it better. The tears could run on for miles n everyday is just all fake smiles. That day runs through my mind all the time. Regret, guilt, sadness, anger, frustration is how i feel, i think about you everyday, when will the sadness, tears n pain go away. The memories will always be there, but its worse when i think about it and your not here. We all miss you. watch over your family. I love you
hi/ Connie (aunt) Hey buddy - me again - I thought about you alot today. Its June 13th and it brings me back to June 13th 2003 when you were at home playing monopoly with gino and steve. Steve had a seizure and you immediately sprang to action by calling 911. You always knew what to do for Steve. He relied on you alot. The day before I spoke to you briefly on the phone, you asked me one simple question - "how did Marilyn Monroe die"? I wonder sometimes what the point of that question was. I should have asked but who knew less than a week later you'd be gone.
I love you samoooch.
just saying hi / Connie (aunt) Hi sammy - just wanted to say hi.. Everyone is partying on St. Clair today because Italy won their first game - but you already know that right. Anyway I wish you could be here with your brothers and cousins celebrating on St. clair. I know you are partying along with them but I still miss you. Love za connie
June 7th 2003 / Connie June 7th, 2003 - 7:30 we were all invited to Nicoles confirmation. Sammy arrived late with his brother Paul. Sammy made the rounds by kissing us all on our cheeks and complaining about his aftershave lotion that it was giving his face a rash. Of course we all tried to give him advice on what to do. He took his plate and filled it up with food and then went to sit in the living room. Once he finished he came into the kitchen and through his paper plate into the trash can. The last time I saw him that night he was sitting in my sisters driveway talking on the phone. I had a $20.00 bill that I wanted to give him as I always did whenever we got together, he was my godson as well. Once outside I noticed that he was getting agitated as he was talking to his girlfriend, so I thought it would be best to get him later. Instead he came inside and yelled from the front doorway - "bye everybody, i'm leaving". We yelled out "bye" from the kitchen and that was the last time I saw him. Two weeks later he died.
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Tributes and Condolences
italy is going to win the cup u know why because u just for u there going to win im telling you
sammy today id the day you left us all today is the day that we were all at your house at 7:45 in the morning pray for u to stay alive watching everybody cry scream shake watching the maremdics take you away seeing all the people who came to see you because they cared but you just didnt make it so now 3 years later we all visiting you at the cematary to see you once more i still remember it like it was yesturday my mom screaming and crying wakeing up to a load scream finding out that my cousin just dided watching your aunt cry and cry and cry and never stop because her butiful son is gone we all pray that you will come back one day i hope that one day is soon it seems all like a dream and i wish it was i love you and rest in peace.
sаммy love you so much i wish you weren`t gone i miss you. I wish i could see you just i moe time if icould spend that day and party and never stop so that day will go on and on and on i wish we had more memorys i wish we could of made new ones and i wish you could see us all grow and grow each day my mom your aunt fortch is turning 40 on the 22 the day after you left us she said" it will never be the same without sammy because he always put a smile on everybody`s face wether they were happy ,sad or mad or wether he was sad happy or mad and my birthdays will never be the same without him there". we might of had laghs we you were gone but not as much and not the same ones. Almost everyday i see your mom and zi connie and zi italy you dad the most they all have a sad face we cant party as much as when you were because you started the party you and nicole and i don`t think you mom or dad or any of us will have the same smile on our face from when you were here.Your brothers miss you too alot well i think ive said anuf for one day i love and see you tommorow 3 year wow its been a long time but yet it seems like yesturday love you for ever :stefanie 
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