Dom - it feels so natural to still call you Dom.  I have been thinking about you alot  not only because its your birthday but because I am missing my brother.   It amazes me how after 30 years of your death I can still visualize you.  I can still here you talking and laughing.  I still see you in my memories at our house on clinton street.  We've gotten older but to me you will always be the brother I would stare up at when I was just a little girl.

Have a great birthday Dom - party with Sammy.  Blow out the candles and have a piece of cake for me. 

love you dom forever and ever.

love connie

i'm almost amazed at the fact that its been 6 years.   it doesn't feel like 6 years it feels like yesterday.  when i do stop and think that its 6 years my heart stops my stomach hurts and i get an anxiety attack.  i still see you in my head everyday. your there.  big bright smile.  i hear your voice - still like when you were here your laughter so vivid.  i can still feel your hands in mine.  i can still feel your cheek against my cheek when I kiss you.  the memories will be there forever my buddy.  not a day goes by your not in my thoughts. not a day goes by that i don't talk to you.  I miss you forever and a day.

i love you my nephew my godson my friend...................

time passes everyday samooch. my 50th just passed and you weren't there beside me to joke about my age and to chill with the rest of the family.  i promised myself on my birthday that i would finally let you go let you rest in peace stop the mourning and stop thinking back on what happened.  it worked for awhile and then the sun shined on st clair and there you were all over again in my thoughts about summers passed. You turned 25 this year.  you left us at 19.  i try to imagine how you would have evolved into a man but my heart stays in 2003 when you left and were only 19.

always remember sammy your zia loves you so much.  i was so proud of you so so so so proud of you.  you went beyond expectations.  your big heart your manners your laughter your pranks. its the last 2 weeks of your life i can't shed.  i saw something different in your eyes. it was like your smile never really hit your face. did i see any signs no none whatsoever. i hope you know when you left us that we all loved you and would have helped you in anyway we could if you had just reached out.  i know you know that now. i hope your time on earth was happy until that dreaded night. i hope the hockey games the swimming the walks to the park wonderland picnics with your parents travelling with your parents christmas birthdays all made you happy and that the smallest moment of your life when you ended it didn't overshadow your happiness in life.

goodnight buddy

love zia

Have you ever noticed that when we light one candle from another it does not diminish the glow of the first candle. In fact for just a moment the flame grows taller and brighter. Mei all the candles that have been lit in memory of precious Sammy glow like a bright star in the night sky and let you know that you and your angel are thought about in a very special way.

sammy - its your angelversay and same as every year and everyday I miss you with all my heart.   Words aren't enough to explain the pain but I think you already know that.  Lots of sorrow that can't be diminished with time.   I hope your pain is now gone and that you are happy and resting peacefully.  You will always be a part of my life.

I love you forever and a day.

love zia connie

Sam,

just want to wish u a happy birthday cuz!

even though i wont be able to see u, i kno that you will be with all of us today as we keep u in our minds and in our hearts!

i miss u, i love you,

see u when i see u!

<3

Hi Angie and Connie,

I know the devastation of losing your child, your son, because I lost Dustin at the same age. Grief and loss are different for everyone, but the sensation that you cannot ever catch your breath again, that your heart has a hole in it, yet it still keeps beating, many times beyond your wishes, is a described circumstance I have often seen and heard about from greiving parents. We all run through the what-if's a million times, thinking if I just get it right this time, when I wake up tomorrow, this will all have been a very bad dream. But, it is a waking dream, a nightmare that lasts forever,

So, I do try to honor Dustin by being the best person I can be. I cry for him every day, but I am really crying for me. I miss him so much!  He is in paradise, I am in a hell of my own making. So, I gather myself up, brush my hair, wash my face, and try to do something around the house to distract me for awhile.

You son and brother were very handsome men, and very sensitive and intelligent people,. no doubt about it. This is actually my field of expertise, so I am not just being nosy. I have a Master's in 3 areas of Emotional Disturbance, and 2 more teaching things. However, these are the hardest to diagnose because men do try to hide their feelings. They think it is weak to express themselves or cry, when actually, it is pretty brave to say what they think and not worry about a consequence, like being made fun of! It sounds from your stories of Both Dom and Sammy that they shared an inherited trait for Bipolar, or , what they used to call Manic/depressive. Sometimes up, happy, dancing, going to concerts(me, too, love music!) But, the other side is the feeling of no hope. That no matter what they do, they will always feel badly, never be loved, or accomplished, even though that is not accurrate! It is a chemical imbalance in the brain, and women usually deal with it better because they have to take care of the house, the kids, the shopping, laundry, etc. They have no time to be depressed. However. up and down mood swings not related tro childbirth or PMS is absolutely Bipolar disorder. And, it is absolutley an inherited trait, passed down through family. So, now you know this for the generation that is up and coming! Do not let any change of behavior slip by;always address it, head on, up close and personnal!

I have taught special education, mainly high school but really Pre-k through 12 for 22 years. Now I am totally disabled from the car wreck after Dust graduated. In a wheelchair. That is nothing compared to losing my baby. If I could have him back, they could cut off all my limbs, but apparently God doesn't make deals.

I know he checks in on me from time to time, when my dog Angel sits in the living room, tipping her head back and forth, as if looking and listening to someone. That is when I have family visitors checking in on me.

I pray for all of your peace. God forgives all, and is especially kind to those who suffer a weakness in the mind after living such a righteous life. They are immediately healed, and made to understand that their destiny in this life was to prepare to help someone else or even a larger purpose. Noone knows the mind of God! We just must have faith!

Many prayers, and hugs to you all! Love, Terri Weeks, Mom to

Angel Dustin Allen Meece 1982-2002

Hi Sammy,

Christmas is close once again.. and once again its another year without you .. and another year to remember the last christmas i spent with you.. Coming over to Marcos house and calling you into my car so i could give you my gift.... you opened the box and loved the cross i gave you.. ill never forget the smile that was on ur face.. u loved it.. n i loved giving it to u... I still cant believe how fast time flys... 5 years !!! still shocks me everytime i think about it.. I cant comprehend how this happend... How you were sooo sad and angry about life towards the world....  i wish it were different.. i wish someone, somehow could have helped you..  There wont ever be words to explain what everyone has gone through because of this.. how much we miss you and would give anything to have one day, one hour, one second to see you and say things that need to be said.... Everyday i still think of you and hear songs that dont make it easy to hear... your on my mind all the time and nothing will replace you or how i feel. I miss you alot and hope one day soon, you'll come visit.

Merry Christmas Sammy.. with all of my heart, i love you

Laura